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Bitch is back
So yeah, I haven't been on this thing for fucking ages.
Not much has really happened in the time in between the last post (which ive deleted as I just sounded like a twat) and this.
All I know is that my life has got pretty stressed at the moment. I owe people a lot of money, and I'm finding it so hard to get a job, and I think my dad is gonna kick me out soon cause he doesn't have enough money to pay for my internet and gas bills. Makes me feel like a fucking retard that i have to rely on people so much. I wish i could just find a job already.
I might just move into a hostel and work as a drug lord :P Might be fun.
Which kinda brings me onto another thing thats stressing me out... what i want to actually do with my life. I'm 20 now, and i feel like i have no direction. Like, there are things i feel strongly for... and things i love, but i just dont know what to do with them. I need to become more independent i guess. I just don't want to turn into an egotistical git though. I only crave the simple things in life. i dont care about money, fame or popularity. I just want comfort, a warm home, and friends and family (and pets!)... meh.. i dunno. I just feel really lame at the moment cause everyone seems to have thier life sorted.. and there is just me, the idiot, walking blindly into nowhere.
I'm really stressed about this girl i really like too. I dunno what the fuck is going on with us two. It's like were seeing each other, but not at the same time. Being with her is like im in total chaos all the time. I dont know which way i'm going, or if im going anywhere. the whole distance thing is a total fuck up to. I kinda feel like im constantly heartbroken, yet totally and deeply in love at the same time. Her bulimia doesn't help much either. I'm so worried about her.
Anyway yeah... what a fun post, ey!!! I swear my middle name should be apathetic.
Good thing about this stressed out business is that i havent eaten for 12 days. Wooooooooooooooo weight losss :D. least something in my life in controllable. blahhhhhhhhhhhh
boredNot much has really happened in the time in between the last post (which ive deleted as I just sounded like a twat) and this.
All I know is that my life has got pretty stressed at the moment. I owe people a lot of money, and I'm finding it so hard to get a job, and I think my dad is gonna kick me out soon cause he doesn't have enough money to pay for my internet and gas bills. Makes me feel like a fucking retard that i have to rely on people so much. I wish i could just find a job already.
I might just move into a hostel and work as a drug lord :P Might be fun.
Which kinda brings me onto another thing thats stressing me out... what i want to actually do with my life. I'm 20 now, and i feel like i have no direction. Like, there are things i feel strongly for... and things i love, but i just dont know what to do with them. I need to become more independent i guess. I just don't want to turn into an egotistical git though. I only crave the simple things in life. i dont care about money, fame or popularity. I just want comfort, a warm home, and friends and family (and pets!)... meh.. i dunno. I just feel really lame at the moment cause everyone seems to have thier life sorted.. and there is just me, the idiot, walking blindly into nowhere.
I'm really stressed about this girl i really like too. I dunno what the fuck is going on with us two. It's like were seeing each other, but not at the same time. Being with her is like im in total chaos all the time. I dont know which way i'm going, or if im going anywhere. the whole distance thing is a total fuck up to. I kinda feel like im constantly heartbroken, yet totally and deeply in love at the same time. Her bulimia doesn't help much either. I'm so worried about her.
Anyway yeah... what a fun post, ey!!! I swear my middle name should be apathetic.
Good thing about this stressed out business is that i havent eaten for 12 days. Wooooooooooooooo weight losss :D. least something in my life in controllable. blahhhhhhhhhhhh
